Cinderella

I feel the rhythm,
or is it your heart beating
sweet touch of an angel
gentle waltz of your breaths on my skin
its the breeze that made me shiver
or was it the fear in my heart?
I close my eyes, lean on you
wait for you to pull me close
wait for the warmth of your arms

bloody battles, I fought for you
let my armour drop
under the silver moon,
there is nothing to hide me – to protect
the clock strikes midnight, and I feel you
pushing me away, ever so gently
I fight. harder this time –
for I am fighting you – for you

“Its time for you to go” you said
and the dream is ripped at the seam
still, I want you to see
before the cold freezes me
I was never meant to be safe
my soul was your twin flame -
the peace was never for me
you are my unfinished sonnet

waiting forever
knocking at the door you closed
never leaving – fearing your pain,
if you ever,
decide to return
but my heart is dying now
and my soul is lost
in the sea of oblivion

Now that I am fading away
my heart, still yearns for you
I had in your arms-
Life, Death and the Judgment Day
its the final midnight
the darkness pulls me
the glass slipper doesnt fit anymore, my love
this Cinderella was never meant to be

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Of Hope and Despair

It starts with a touch
Warm, lazy winter noon
You are near, somewhere
in my heart, in my soul
My eyes feel heavy,
the dream so tempting
Feeling your breath on my eyes
Tears unshed, ecstasy of suffering

Holding back,
wishes untamed
Waiting for the years
A moment a day
My fingers, feel your smile
and my heart feels your pain
You wish I would ask even though,
I know you can’t stay

Counting, clinging on to the moments,
before I let you go
Close enough for whispers
Too far to touch
And I wish, sometimes
In the moments of weakness
I wish I couldn’t hear your heartbeat
Wish I didn’t know what goes on inside


I hear you leave, before you let -
me out of your arms
The wind falls silent
tip-toeing in the distance
Shy twilight – scared to touch
Empty canvas
Darkness covers me for the ritual
Another night of frost

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©Chhaya

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Glory

She denounces,
tempting shadows.
Burning scalding sky
Parched lips, mocking eyes

Breaths come in gasps
endless, frozen desert
She stands tall carrying
tombstone too heavy

Gaping wounds she ignores
Stubborn, she smiles
Time, destiny, morals, fate
Greedy vultures - salivate

She wears her sins
with love and pride
Heaven flashes its wrath
Helpless, Longinus cries

She opens her arms
claiming dark victory.
They kill her carcass
Soul infidel tells a story

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The Perfect Lover

Waking up to the magic
tormented with the need
eyes still dreamy , in each fibre
of my being, I feel
Your smell, ever so divine,
kisses me softly
makes me go weak in my knees,
makes me smile


Desperate for your warmth
touching my lips so tender,
soothing my nerves
my heart beats, just a bit faster
You make me alive
melting the pain
the sun shines brighter
when you burn through my veins


My reflection told me,
it was meant to be
The color of my eyes,
always belonged to thee.
Ripped from the life
Burnt for pleasure
Crushed by the world
the pain sets us free


You give me shelter
through the days so cruel
and keep me alive
in the nights insane
I am holding you close,
as the moon washes over me
Is there a lover like you
my dear cup of caffeine?

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Beyond the Sunset

Sitting by the ocean
of love and life.
Dipping my toes
scared of the tide.
Caressed by your voice
ever so gentle.
Setting me free
pulling me deeper.


Wild waves taunt
my lowered eyes.
And I think of that someone
who has your love tonight.
Holding you close
away from the world.
Through days of joy
and nights of laughter.

I wait forever
in smiles and tears .
Silent, helpless words,
but the heartbeat whispers
Your soul tells me
untamed as the sea.
beyond the sunset,
that someone is me.


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The Darklings

Angry, the wind howled
I chose the frosty moonbeam, over
the raging fire, blessed by hell
my own twin flame

Banished in death,
I wandered the weathered land
Chained, cursed by your love
as dark as my sinful soul

My heart denounced me
tormented, by your betrayed eyes
Guilt ruled by the day,
reigned, mauled me by the night

Lonely, I treaded the moor
paralysed with the avenging ice
Devil didn’t claim me, my love
He knew without me, you can’t die

So here I am, watching you wither
with the pain that I gifted
Your dark eyes burn with passion
made sweet by maddening hatred

I stand by the heath
tired, soaked, shivering
near your window,
out in the blinding rain

I came home to you, torn
by the merciless wind.
Hold me in your arms forever,
Please let me in.


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Those who have read the "Wuthering Heights" will know that this poem is a dedication to Heathcliff and Catherine. For me, they define the word "Soul-mate"

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Of Love and Shadows

Do you feel me beside you,
as the night surrounds us?
Can you feel me hold you close,
caressing, kissing your brow?
In your eyes, questions infinite,
Wanting me to concede.
Lips sewn, bloody
rusty chains, I have on my feet

The morning will come
The chill will be gone
But will you ever know,
that my heart was torn?
I let you pass by, looking
at me with eyes accusing
for hurting you every moment,
with my dead, silent spirit.

You call me heartless
I keep the vow of silence.
You walk in the sunshine,
renouncing the darkness and me
I hear your anger
cursing the eternity.
You call me coward
and turn away from me

But know this my love
even if I’m gone
my love will be with you,
keeping you warm.
And when the time triumphs
leaving marks on your face,
when the sun sets, in the darkness
you will find me once more.


©Chhaya

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Insomnia

The cruel clock
drags slowly to half past one.
Two tiny white pills..
I cling on to my weapons.

Pillow cold as ice
heavier than wet unyielding rock
soft, white, moonlit bed
a mound of broken glass

The solitary streetlight
makes the shadows
dance on the ceiling
to the tunes of melancholy

Caressing my brow with love
the Angel of pain bathes
in the splendor
of deafening silence

“Rest is for the weak”,
she whispers
and gifts me
another night insane.


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Charred dreams

He crawls, pleading eyes
Searching through,
Ashes, still warm..
as her touch, her smile.
Did she cry,
whispered his name.
He asks the tattered sky..
Silent- desperate.

Searching, did she pray..
For him to see..
Unshed acid tears
burning her skin.

Did the angels cry,
hearing her screams.
Bones so tender,
demons crushing.

Bleeding hands, he finds
her battered soul.
The charred sparrow,
Vacant eyes – frozen hope.

He washes her scars.
With tears and regrets..
the wind cries..
A child is dead.


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Farewell

I carve out
my bleeding heart
it hurts bit more
as I laugh

pain
in your silence
burns me
in the rain

regret
in your eyes
cuts me deeper than
the deepest sea

fly away home
I set you free
as I pick up the pieces
of our dream

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Soulmate

Counting the years..
mirror in my hand,
I searched for you..
my shadow.

Closing tired eyes..
I kissed you my love,
as I walked with a smile..
living, performing the lies.

I try laugh so hard..
and make it look real,
they smile back ..
think they know how I feel.

I pick up the thorns..
from the velvety night,
as your fingers..
touch her ever so light.

Scalded by the moonlight..
I reached out to you,
just stop the morning..
don’t leave my dream tonight.

With the silence of my eyes..
in the whispers of the dawn.
A lifetime and a moment..
I waited for you


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Angel

Smiling
in my dream
feeling your heart
beating next to me

You pull me close
and the night falls silent
your eyes touch me
whispering sweet nothings


Letting the mask slip
safe in your arms
I become
a child again


I lock the pain
away forever
as I wear your promise
from now till eternity

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Haiku Efforts - 3

Footsteps
I miss a heartbeat
Is it you?

my fingers bleed
torn by the pieces
of your heart

tears melt
with smiles and dreams
In your arms

Lightening, they say
never strikes twice
what about love?



PS: they are just efforts, not technically haiku

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Haiku Efforts - 2

Averted eyes
don’t tell what
I feel for you

you reach out
three words of love
A moment too late

She scares to touch
glass walls around
Childhood snatched

Fragile envelope
too precious to be torn
Stays unopened

PS: they are just efforts, not technically haiku

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Together - Forever

Sitting by the window
relishing the pain,
I hear the sunshine
tip-toeing through the curtains

Cool breeze whispers,
with the whiff of dew
I blush as if I am
caressed by you

darkness engulfs me,
as the morning shines
"I will always be around ",
I hear your broken voice

Cool, sliver of steel,
slides on bare flesh.
The world turns crimson,
but I, feel no more pain


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Trying to write Haiku - 1

World drowning in blood
hope floats
in the eyes of kids

I wait at the doorway
endless rain
will you be home tonight?

Autumn leaf floats away
your kiss
can you hear the silence?

burning my wishes
I keep warm
the fire grows cold

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PS: they are just efforts, not technically haiku

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All I Wanted for Christmas

Dark scary December night
Cold. Dry. Miles long
Eyes full of pain, lips wearing a smile
"For you my baby ", you said, "I will fight "

Keeping your promise
you fought on
Long days, full of pain
Longer nights, when I sat by your side

Your hands, growing cold, kept me warm
"I am scared ",
clutching you,
I whispered in the dark

Smiling the pain away,
You asked in the voice so faint
"It’s a week to Christmas,
What do you want for that day? "

I had so much to say,
you had so much to hear
I never got to tell you,
I wanted to look like you one day

The angels were arriving, the sky turning a faint blue
So many wishes I had
But all I wanted for Christmas,
was you.


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Abeyance

Long day, strange faces
lost in the crowd, yet you were with me
People smiling
I sigh – hoping, no one is there to see

Thundering, dancing
clouds ask for courage
I bow, telling them its not to be
I wish- hoping, no one is there to see

The rain lashed on, soaking
The sky is crying, angry
They know, I was wrong
I wince - hoping, no one is there to see

Walking home, I hear a footstep
You are around, I feel inside
Miles way, still you touch me
I smile a tear away - hoping, no one is there to see

I the dark, I find peace
I can’t, but you hold on to me
To say it all, I kept silent
I will try again - hoping, you are here to see

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